Too much...

I am getting very tired of my family taking advantage of me. They demand so much of me. I am a feminist and I believe that household chores are the responsibility of all the members in that household. If you wear clothes, then you can do laundry. If you eat, then you can clean up and do dishes. Don't ask me what I need you to do! If you don't have clean underwear then maybe you should wash some! That has nothing to do with me! They ask me where everything is, if we have something, what are our plans for the weekend, etc. I am not the keeper of all things possible - I don't keep inventory. I really feel that they would have no idea of what to do if I wasn't around.
I wish there was a reality show called "Runaway Mom" where the family is left to fend for themselves with mom to direct and keep order. I would go off for a relaxing weekend with no way to be reached. I am curious what would happen! Where can I sign up!!!
I know that it is partially my fault that they are so dependent on me. I take care of them and worry about them. I buy food not just for myself but for them. I do laundry for everyone. Somewhere, everyone stopped seeing chores that needed to be done and instead of letting them run out of clothes or food, I took over. It's all of our faults because they let me. Of, mom will do it. Mom has left the building!
I'm going to try an experiment. I will hide all to-do lists, calendars and schedules. I just have to figure out how to hide me so they can't come and ask. I need to somehow let them spread their wings and learn to be more independent without relying on them to not forget a recital, 60th birthday party or something else really important!

taking on too much...

My husband wants to kill me! Not literally, he's just tired of me accepting more things to do while knowing it stresses me out. I am the type of person that needs to be busy - a true TYPE A! But with all that comes stress. I have a hard time saying no. So, besides girl scouts, working two jobs, pta, housework, raising two children, home improvement projects, and writing online, I just accepted to chair another pta position for next year! I almost cringed when I told my husband. I know, I know it gets to be too much sometimes, but I also know that my involvement reaps great rewards. I have a wonderful community and everywhere I go, I run into someone I know. I have made many great friends with people that have crossed these many paths. I want to stay involved and active because there will come a time where the babies fly from the nest and won't need me as much anymore.

Living without medical insurance

My husband changed jobs recently in order to better himself and our family. Unfortunately with all of the benefits associated with this new job, the biggest downside is that we have to wait 3 months until his medical benefits kick in. This would be much easier to manage if we were a younger single couple without children. We have to beautiful healthy kids, but there is still so much worry that something will go wrong. I don't watch the news (because it's too depressing) so I don't know much about Obama's health plan. All I know is that we don't make enough money to pay for Cobra insurance and we make too much money to qualify for any type of discount medical insurance. So the only option we were left with was to ride out the 3 months without any coverage. So far it hasn't been that bad, but the sleepless nights or worry are taking it's toll. I try to just go day by day to forget about it and hope the three months passes quickly.

omg I've turned into my parents

Recently in the car, my son wanted to put on his ipod through the speakers for all of us to hear. He put on a song from a band called "Disturbed"...I didn't recognize it at first and so I asked him to change it to something we all knew and could enjoy...then - wait - I think I do know this song! My husband and I just looked at each other as it started to sink in. It was their version of "Land of Confusion" by Genesis! Lmao! My husband and I started cracking up and singing along only to our son's digust! Haha I had to tell him to "get his own music" just like my parent used to say to me!

Time to smell the roses.....

After a very long winter and some brutally cold days, my body has had enough. I find it very difficult to muster the energy to get things done. I think I have a case of the "winter blues." I'm always so tired, and blah feeling. I still function, because everyone knows - moms can't catch a break! I still go about my daily routines, cooking, cleaning, working two jobs, balancing and juggling - you know, all that stuff we do! But now I am ready for some change. I think it's time for Spring to come so I can regain my outdoor exposure (vitamin D from the sun too) and zest for life. I love gardening, and seeing the plants grow helps lift my spirits. Maybe I can start my seeds early...

Race to Nowhere

This is a film about the stress and pressure kids today have on them. They are stressed because testing, homework, pressure to perform, sleep deprivation, and then of course the usual fitting in. I strongly encourage everyone to see this film. You can find out more information on www.facebook.com/RaceToNowhere

Running around

Today was such a full day - as usual! I did my usual light housework before going to the "real" job (I mean the one that pays!) Then I ran straight to the elementary school to catch up on some PTA work. I then had just enough time to swing by the middle school to pick up my son. The two of us talked about the day as we went to pick up my daughter from a friends house. As soon as we got home, I shoved food down their throats so I could make a 7pm parent orientation meeting at the high school. I am finally home from work at 8:30pm! I am ready to collapse, but there is always more to do! I will look over the homework, make lunches for tomorrow, maybe do a load or two of laundry before actually turning in for the night. Then tomorrow I will do it all over again! G'night!