Sunday, November 27, 2011

I'm losing it....

While Thanksgiving was great, celebrating with family and friends and being thankful for everyone and everything around me, today was a horrible day. I am a very organized person. I write everything down, keep track of birthdays, parties, gifts, shopping lists, inventory, schedules even oil changes and house repairs. My motto is "If I don't have it written down, it doesn't exist!" Well, I'm afraid to say I screwed up three different times today. This is so unlike me that I feel like something is wrong with me. I had the wrong location for my daughters 2.5 hour Nutcracker rehearsal. I remembered (amazing!) that I had forgotten to get a gift for a party we attended four weeks ago. (The party was during the historic NY snowstorm Halloween weekend and stores were closed, so we went to the party with a card and an I.O.U.) I finally remembered to fulfill the I.O.U only this morning - because I hadn't written it down. The last crazy thing I did today was to put some crescent rolls in the toaster oven then walk away until the smoke alarms went off! They were black and smoke filled the kitchen. This was my breaking point. Mind you, I got my period this morning so I'm usually emotional, but this was just too much. My game is off...my mind is off. Something just isn't right. Maybe it's just too much in a short period of time. Maybe it's just too much for one person to handle. What I'm most scared about is that maybe it's my brain saying it's just too much for me. I've had anxiety issues and heart palpitations but always trudge through it because - let's be realistic - who else is going to do it? I am truly scared by so many mistakes in one day. It's just not like me. Unfortunately my husband doesn't share my concern but it's definitely a lot for me. Like I said before, I am a very well organized person.